The Moment That Melted a Hard Day

Today's day started fine, and then, as it was happening before, I was in the same mood as I wrote in this post. Actually, I was more on the depression side. On my way home, I did a usual thing, went to a nearby shop to buy some daily groceries, got home in the same mood, tried to put my kid to sleep, it didn't work out. Overall, it was, somehow, a hard moment.

I was pretty much in the same mood up until now. When my little one fell asleep in a hug with me on the sofa. I think that was the moment that melted me, that pulled me out of depression, I felt happiness once again.

After some time with my kid in my hands, I decided to put her in her crib so she could stretch as she was suffering from the tiny space on the sofa with me. I didn't want to, but I did it for her.

I got out into our garden to smoke one cigarette, and I opened Instagram literally for a second and I got the photo:

Somehow it touched me so much, it made me cry. I know that now everything looks hard but soon hard moments will be missed. Hell, I'm writing this and my eyes are getting full of tears, not the sad ones, but ones that know that this tiny little cute human being will grow up, and will not sleep in daddy's arms.

Somehow this post changed me completely now and the way I'm thinking. I love my baby, I always did and I always will. But somehow this tiny little image changed my vision and my perception of reality. We struggle to earn money, we have issues, we have sleepless nights, we fight with so many things throughout the day, that we forget to enjoy something that will never come back.

I'm going off now to cuddle with my wife while I'm in this mood, and later maybe with our princess.

Written in Germany